Over the past week:
- Our house sold
- An inspector came and gave a bad report about our house
- Our house unsold
- A contractor came and disproved the false report
- Our house resold
There’s a couple things that have been interesting about the past week to us.
- There was originally 2 offers on the house. We originally agreed to the higher one. This is the one that fell through due to the bad report.
- The second lower offer is from our current buyers
- When the house went back on the market, they re-entered their offer
- We countered with our ‘bottom line’ offer
- They countered in the middle.
- We compromised
- They accepted
- We un-compromised and went back up
- They accepted again
- This was all happening while we were camping with friends. Their faith and support really helped us out while we were weighing this decision. They encouraged us to lay a fleece before the Lord (which was our offer back upwards).
Anyway, we are now currently awaiting the results of this second inspection. We’re a little nervous simply because the first one went so bad. If the report is good, we’ll be out of this house in 5 weeks. If the report is bad, we’ve got some re-assessing to do.
In either case, we have chosen to trust that His plan will prevail in our lives. We want to have faith for our community to meet and know the Risen Christ. We want a house of worship, prayer and discipleship for our city, and we’re putting all our chips on the table for it. This house is all we have to offer; but what I’m noticing in this process is that He’s taking away more from my heart than just an attachment to a house. I had no idea how little faith I actually have. Or how much control over my life I maintain, or how I use my time & money, my attitudes are often wrong and judgmental.
I thought I was offering a house, He’s taking all of me.
Luke 23:39 One of the criminals hanging beside him scoffed, “So you’re the Messiah, are you? Prove it by saving yourself — and us, too, while you’re at it!” 40 But the other criminal protested, “Don’t you fear God even when you are dying? 41 We deserve to die for our evil deeds, but this man hasn’t done anything wrong.” 42 Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your Kingdom.” 43 And Jesus replied, “I assure you, today you will be with me in paradise.”
A few things about this scripture stick out to me.
- All 3 were carrying a cross. Jesus told us we have a cross to carry too, and it involves denying ourself to pick up His will.
- The cross is painful. His will is not for my comfort. It’s for His Glory.
- One criminal got angry about his cross, scoffed at Jesus and wanted deliverance from his situation. He was looking at the here-and-now reality of his pain, and hated Jesus in his heart because He had the power to deliver, but would not do it.
- The other criminal accepted his cross, and looked to Jesus to deliver his soul. He is with Christ in Paradise.
My house is a small, really really small cross. It’s teaching me that my time, money and comfort are not my own. I can look at Christ and demand deliverance and my own way [even if my intentions are good]. Or, I can accept my circumstances as His will and look to Him; trusting that He will receive Glory from my life…however He chooses to use it.
Two paths lay ahead of us: one easily recognized, one small and narrow and dimly lit. Some poet says it better than me, but I know where the broad path goes. It goes to houses, cars, vacations, cabins, college loans, and more and more stuff. The other path goes after the heart of Christ. I want to gain His heart, which involves the fellowship of His suffering in order to gain fruit that will last.